A Journey Begins

It is fascinating to look at your life from the outside in when you learn you have a major disease or other significant issue. Time literally slows down; you watch ongoing conversations of others but only hear the conversation in your own head. It is amazing how much personal ground you can cover in this self-talk which in reality may have only been a few short seconds of your life.

Surreal, becoming real, as the voice in your head shifts to the voices of the people around you. You should, you have to, did you? will you? The list goes on, and on. And on…

In the next minutes, hours and days, a flurry of external panicked activity and advice ensues; most of it well-intentioned from doctors, family, friends, colleagues, and random strangers. It feels like everyone has a story or opinion and believes they know of just the thing to ‘fix’ you. On top of that, we live in an age of instant information that just might lead to the path of that elusive fix…

I walk away. Literally. From all of it. I take several weeks to be in the moment, every moment. No doctors, no cell phone, no email, no Facebook. I pray. I breathe. In those moments I find myself, only then realizing how far I’d gone from who I am. Decisions that should be difficult suddenly are not. I find a sense of peace, calm, gratitude, and wholeness that hasn’t been inside me for years. I find humor- a lot of it, as I recognize the people, situations, and opportunities that have shaped me, changed me, and prepared me for the opportunity that lies ahead.

I am blessed beyond measure. I choose my response and reaction to everything and everyone crossing my path. I believe my choices do determine my path. I can do all things through Christ.

I am…I choose…I believe…I can. There are thousands of ways to end these phrases that will make me whole. This is how I choose to live my life so I can now admire the view, from the outside in.

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43 Responses to A Journey Begins

  1. ageunltd says:

    Great start my friend! Blessings

  2. Jacque Berry says:

    I am smiling through my tears… I am so excited to in on the ground floor of this amazing ADVENTURE! I am grateful for this smile and these tears as I look back on this one day and find myself proud of eating healthier for just this one day….no chocolate, no gluten and no meat! I owe this to you, my friend Trish Trujillo..for God has given you a special 100 mile an hour gift…and I, for one, am gonna enjoy the ride!

    • Trish T says:

      Jacque, it is exciting and I can’t wait to share your good news. Even more, I can’t wait to see you in person and enjoy healthy meals while we are enjoying time at the beach to celebrate our successes! πŸ™‚

  3. Gina says:

    I can’t fight the tears as I read your blog. As you know I lost my mother-in-law a couple of months ago to breast cancer. So your journey has a special place in my heart. I watch the chemo and medications literally drain the life and fight out of a very strong woman. Every chance I get I share your story with my family members and I will always remember the moment in your office when you told me…”I’m not dying of cancer, I’m living with cancer”. Keep the blogs coming my friend!

    • Trish T says:

      Why do we always make each other cry? lol! Your strength through your year and willingness to always listen no matter how busy your day is has meant the world to me! xo!

  4. DogBoy says:

    You are official in my top 10 favorite people I know

    • Trish T says:

      Now I have to change my FB comment about kicking you! In all seriousness, you are in my top 10. You, Courtney, and your phenomenal staff who are all my Texas family! I love you all! I couldn’t have done this year without you!

  5. Sandy says:

    I love this blog, Anxiously waiting the next article! You are such a strong person. one of the strongest I know.!!

    • Trish T says:

      Sandy, you are literally one of my biggest inspirations. I look at you and know my journey is so possible given everything you’ve been through and you are rocking out success after success. Bigger and better for both of us in 2013 and beyond! πŸ™‚

  6. Kimberlee says:

    My dear frined, this is wonderful. wow. i am so proud of you. please keep going

    • Trish T says:

      Thanks Kimberlee! To you and your parents who have been such a huge part of the affirmation process that helped me through the initial stages of this opportunity!

  7. Amanda says:

    What a beautiful start to your blog. I look forward to reading more. You are such an inspiration!

  8. Sandra Kay says:

    Trish, you inspire me!!!

  9. BethSwenson says:

    and you said you weren’t a writer…..you can do anything you set your mind to do! You are a wonderfully amazing person. You have been a huge blessing in my life….keep it dear friend πŸ™‚

    • Trish T says:

      Same for me about you! You remain my poster child of anything and everything is possible! Thank you for always helping me find true, belly aching laughter for the weird things that come up (and out) with cancer and for being such a great friend!

  10. BethSwenson says:

    I meant keep it up dear friend…

  11. Sharon Lindsey says:

    You are amazing, incredible, and truly a blessing. I am incredibly thankful to call you my friend. That’s all I can type right now or I will short circuit the keyboard with “eye water”!

  12. Connie says:

    OMG. And I do mean Oh My God. I type and read this through my tears. I do truly believe “WE can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens us” and you are living proof of this. Thank you so much for including me in your View From The Outside In.

  13. Sheila Schull says:

    Trish, Your strength is truly amazing and inspiring. Thank you for letting me be included in your journey. Sheila

  14. afriendj says:

    “It IS fascinating to look at your life from the outside in.” Life took you to a journey where others did not want to go. It took you to a place where faith, confidence, and hope are disintegrated. You have cried, pained, and hoped. I wish you a power of a perspective that allow you to see the beauty of the darkness, no matter how threatening of the situation. There always is light for us to access, whether it be the light of God, or the light of a friend, or even the light within ourselves that is the power and the strength with which we’ve all been blessed to one extent or another. For every night comes to an end, every storm runs its course, and light and peace will always return to us. We are blessed to be part of your life! Stay strong, Trish.

  15. You may not consider yourself a writer, but I beg to differ. Thank you for
    sharing your experience so eloquently. I will continue to pray for you and
    praise God with you. How marvelous are His works, including us!

    Michele K

    • Trish T says:

      Thank you Michele! You have been a huge inspiration to me- your creativity in your cookbook and plays are to be envied! πŸ™‚ Thank you for your continued prayers!

  16. Dorothy Pyka says:

    Trish, your story is amazing, you are a writer. Thank you for letting me be included in your journey.

  17. Missy Hatcher says:

    Trish, wow!!! I am emotional from reading this and you inspire me to want to be better in all that I do. I can’t wait to hear more. You are a god sent angel! Love ya!

  18. Carole Cameron says:

    Cancer is not a dirty word – it IS an unbelievable journey. I started mine about 6 1/2 years ago, with a breast cancer diagnosis. I wallowed in self-pity, cried, laughed, thought about things I’d never considered before, withstood more than I ever thought I could, and changed how I approached the rest of my life. I found out how much love people could give me – especially those I never knew really cared. I also found out how much trouble some people have dealing the Big C, when those I thought I could count on walked away. I found out I was not alone, or even particularly outstanding for going through it – so many of us do. I read Nancy Brinker’s book, Promise Me, about her sister Susan Komen, and probably went through 3 boxes of tissues. I prayed a lot on the those chemo nights when no sleep was to be found. I held my breath and my wonderful husband’s hand when we removed the dressing where my breast used to be. In short, I found out that life was to be lived, every day, every minute, as we never know what tomorrow might hold. But whatever it does hold, there’s something precious for us there.

    • Trish T says:

      Carole, you are one of the people I thought of as I started this blog, and I couldn’t agree more! I have had more blessings come my way and have improved so much as a person post diagnosis! I have learned more about myself, doctors, other people, friends and otherwise since this journey began, and I wouldn’t take back one moment of it! I know you are well my friend, but hope to see you, Bear, Dakota or another furbaby sometime soon! Thank you so much for your comment!

  19. Shelly Moldenhour says:

    Thank you so much for including me in your View From The Outside In. As I read your journey, it brought tears in my eyes. You are a very strong woman. I agree with your comment, β€œI can do all things through Christ.” God only puts us through difficult situations because he knows we have faith to overcome the struggles. After losing my precious daddy, I realized God is my rock. I thank God each day for giving me another day to see my family and friends. I want you to know that I have enjoyed watching your food postings on facebook. I look forward to learning from you and changing my food habits. Thank you again for being my inspiration. πŸ™‚

    • Trish T says:

      My next post is about my mom and it will likely be the most difficult one I write. Losing a parent is such a difficult thing, but we are blessed to have had parents that leave us with so many great memories and life lessons! I’ll say a little prayer for both of us as I write my next post!

  20. Adrienne McCoy says:

    Truly inspirational. You are absolutely amazing and I appreciate you sharing your journey with me. You are completely right, your choices determine your path, and I believe you are on a path to inspire others in so many ways.

  21. Gerry Suttoon says:

    Oh Trish, face it, you’re a very eloquent writer and touched my soul with your words. The inspiration you create is beyond incredible. You help me to be strong in life and life’s choices, and as I’ve told you before I am so blessed to have you as my friend and to be included in your journey. You are always in my prayers and forever in my heart. Love to you.

    • Trish T says:

      Love you too Gerry! We have come a long way together over the past several years! Even though I no longer enjoy a glass of wine here and there, I like to think we are like fine wine- we get better with age! πŸ™‚ Thank you for your support and always bringing smiles to my day!

  22. dolores garza says:

    I hope to hear how you are doing these days.

  23. dolores garza says:

    I really hope to hear how you are doing these days.

    • Trish T says:

      I am doing well and am working on my next post even as I type here! πŸ™‚ We are moving to second floor so I will see you more starting tomorrow! Hope you are well too!

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